Thats never good is it? lol jk But yeah I've been thinking a lot lately. About my art and my music. And I really want to get good at both of them. I've been drawing since I was a little girl. And I've been listening to music since I was a little girl. And I've been playing the guitar for a long time now and been interested in it.

And I really do want to get better with both of my art and music. I want to find my own style with my art and my own sound with my music. I don't want it to be like anyone else's but mine.

And honestly. I feel like I update more than I get the chance to work on my art and music. I mean both of those passions is going to take a lot of time up from you. If you're really serious about getting better with them. You're going to have to spend countless hours trying to perfect them in your own way.

And I have two web-sites. I have God knows how many forums and blogs and LJ communities. And mostly all of that is for my art. I wish I had a domain name to put my art and music under one "roof" so to speak. Instead of having two separate web-sites. Because I do want my art and music to merge together at some point. I want them to both support each other. I want my musical passion to come out in my characters and stories and I want my art to hopefully be on my album covers one day.

But as I said that takes a lot of time to get really good and practice.

And until I can find a job. Which its hard to right now because a lot of people have been going out of business here and the economy sucks. And not to mention I live in a small town. I won't have a web-site of my own. So I have to stick with Geo-Cities for awhile longer.

And I actually like Geo-Cities. I'm learning that I kind of like Web Design and I like to play and have fun with layouts. Its actually pretty flexible if you know how to work with it. But sometimes it sticks when I try to save a page and I'll have to close it and open it 5 times before I can actually get it to save. And thats really the only complaint I have about it. I mean you just waist so much time trying to get one page to save. When you could be doing something else.

And its so big. It may not seem that big but when you have to change each page one by one it is. -_- And I have my RPG Forum. Which I actually made because I thought role playing would help me with story telling better. And to also just have fun with my friends. And I have. I'm not the best story teller. Hell no, not by a long shot. But any story teller or any anything can always learn something new if they're the best or what.

But I do like my stories they just need a lot of work. But the only one that usually rp's with me is Katie. And I know everyone has their own thing they need to do. Everyone is busy with their own life. And I TOTALLY understand that. And I completely support them. I've had a lot of fun with my forum. And I've learned a lot from different people. But I kind of think this huge website I have and my 5 forums and all of my LJ communities is holding me back.

I have to go down a list and update all of them. And just one update takes the whole night from me. I have to update my website then my forums then all of my communities and I look at the clock and its like 5:00 am in the morning. And the nights gone and then I get so tired and I can't work on my art how I wanted to and I have to go to bed. Because I'm the type of person. That when I'm dead dog tired and falling on my face. I can't draw and I can't write music. I can't do anything or function properly. And I mess up on most of what I work on and then I get mad. And then I get mad again at myself for having a tantrum instead of just telling myself to stop and not get mad over nothing. And take a break.

So its all just too much to handle. And I think I'm trying to work on too many comics at the same time. The most I need to do right now is one or two. Because comics takes a lot of time. I'm no expert but if you're new to making comic's and you're still learning. Like for me. One page to me seems like it could add up to 5 drawings. ._. Because you have to do the panels and then draw the characters and put in the words and everything. And on top of that for me. I have to get better at expressions and positions.

So I think I'm going to delete my website and my forums and all of my communities. Cause I feel too cluttered. I just want a website for my art and a website for my music. I don't want this huge website. I just want maybe like 3 pages at the most on it. One about me, then my art on Paper Demon, then a blog for my comics and a blog for my website updates and a links page to my fav artists/friends and banners if you want to link back and thats it.

Instead of 10 forums and 10032498503984 LJ communities. Cause its just so much to work on. If I just had to update two blogs and only put my BEST art that I have for the time being in there. Instead of putting ALL of my art in there. Then I could draw more and work on my comics more and stories and possibly squeeze in music time.

Because I could just draw and get better and only post art if I think its post worthy. Instead of updating everytime I finish a piece.

Less updating = more time for art and improving. So yeah I just want my lil art website all nice and simple so it'll be much more easier to update. And less hassle.

The thing is. I'm going to move from dA. And I have 700 deviations to delete. And that will take all night. -_- I can just delete my websites and blogs all at once but I have to delete all of these deviations one by one. So I can start fresh. YAY ME. >_<

I guess I'll update when I decide or start working on it. And everything. My music website is totally organized. Its not that big. I just have one forum for it and a blog and then Imeem and YouTube 'cause thats where I post my songs. And thats it. Its not that much to update. And I want my art to be the same.